“I Tried Committing Suicide Four Times”

Read Elizabeth Ayala's Powerful Story

I remember I was by myself, and I was in my pool. And, you know, those negative thoughts were beating me, “Kill yourself, kill yourself. There’s no point of living. No one likes you.”

I have an uncle who is a witch doctor. And because he didn’t want my mom to be involved with my father, he had a lot of hatred towards him. And that’s why he would do those evil works against my family. It came to a point my mom became ill. Once she passed away, those evil curses that were on her passed to me.

And then that’s when I started suffering even more with paranormal activity. At night, I would see shadows. I would hear voices. I would wake up at three in the morning hearing someone calling my name. And I would always feel like I wouldn’t be able to move from my bed, and it would be exactly at the same time, around three in the morning.

I was scared. I didn’t speak with anyone about it because I was afraid people would think I just wanted attention. I was scared to tell my dad because I would think he would never believe me.

And it came to a point where I tried committing suicide four times. The first time, I tried cutting my veins. The second time, I tried drinking bleach, and the third time, I tried to overdose myself with pills. And the fourth time, I attempted to drown myself in the water.

I was invited to do the Chain of Prayer at The Universal Church, especially on Fridays, the prayer for deliverance. And that was what I needed.

The first result I noticed was that I could sleep at night. However, I became completely free when receiving the Holy Spirit during the Fast of Daniel—21 days. During those 21 days, it wasn’t easy. It was very hard because I had to sacrifice the things of this world, like watching television and being on social media, but also do the spiritual part.

Well, what was mostly difficult was to let go of my past, of that hate. I was detoxing myself spiritually. And then I said, “Lord, I don’t accept that this fast is almost ending, and I still haven’t received your Spirit. I sacrificed everything already, everything that I had to let go, every single thing.”

So I said, “My Lord, I want You to come down right now with Your power and enter inside of my life completely and make me new.” And there I just had this assurance that I wasn’t the same Elizabeth anymore. I didn’t have to feel anything. I didn’t have to hear any music, nothing. It was just me and God.

From that moment on, I wanted to talk about Jesus to everyone, to every person I knew, to every contact I had, and to my family. I would talk about Jesus to everyone. And then there entered the desire and need to serve Him. Today, my life is completely changed—I am free from all of that trauma, all of that anxiety, all of the paranormal activity, the suicidal thoughts.

The Holy Spirit, He completed me. He filled me up. Today, I have peace, my family is restored, everything. He has restored me completely.

—Elizabeth Ayala