“I Was Partying and Drinking to Feel Accepted by My Friends”

Read Katheryn’s Inspiring Story

I was partying and drinking and doing all those things to feel accepted by my friends. But every time I was doing that, I saw my life getting from bad to worse. My relationship with God was on and off. I went to some church services, but I still didn’t give myself fully to God the way He wanted.

I had a bunch of friends. I liked to hang out with my friends. I was always around people who were not a good influence on me. Drinking or smoking, whatever they did, I also wanted to be involved. I wanted to see what they were doing, and I wished to be with them and be like them.

I would also skip school a lot. I had a lot of absences. I had a bad relationship with my mom. I held a lot of grudges towards her and a lot of anger.

I was always scared of the dark. I had to have some sort of light or sleep next to someone because I would hear footsteps. I would hear noises or hear voices that led me to not be able to sleep for nights.

Even with a lot of people around me because I came to have a lot of friends, it still wasn’t enough to fill the loneliness that I had. I thought that the friends I had were true friends. When I found out that all this time and this love and all the stuff that I did to show them I cared for them was not enough, and they actually didn’t care at all. They left. They let me know that they did not care.

I went home and I really just cried and told God, “So what’s the point? What’s the point of being here? What’s the point of living? The people I thought cared, they don’t care about me.” I started feeling guilty and ashamed. I wished I could turn everything back. Everything I did, the time I poured into the friends, into the people, into the stuff that I did, it wasn’t worth it.

I wanted God to give me a chance. I wanted to change, and I knew that He was the only one who would do that. After seven weeks of participating in the Chains of Prayer at The Universal Church, participating, praying sincerely, being delivered, and my decision to seek God with all my heart, I saw positive changes.

I slept better, I would wake up feeling better, more happy. I started wanting the Holy Spirit and it took me a really long time to figure that out and understand that what I needed was the Holy Spirit. It was God inside of me that was going to fulfill me.

I wanted to be different, and I wanted all those holes I had, I wanted God to fill them. I gave myself to Him. I gave my soul, spirit, my life, my future, everything. I gave it to Him.

The Holy Spirit came upon me. He gave me happiness, instant happiness, instant peace, instant reassurance. Surrounded by people or just by myself, I know who I am, who I have, whom I follow, whom I trust, which is God.

Nobody could have done, could have solved, and could have pulled me from where I was if it wasn’t God.

—Katheryn