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My daughter passed away, and I was just searching and wondering and trying to figure out, you know, how to go on after losing a child that passed away in my arms. I was just trying to figure out what happened. I was just lost.<\/p>\n
She wasn\u2019t feeling well, and she called the paramedics herself. I went to the hospital. She couldn\u2019t breathe. I said, \u201cBritney, are you okay?\u201d She said, \u201cYes, mama.\u201d \u201cAre you sure?\u201d She said, \u201cYes, but I\u2019m having a hard time breathing.\u201d<\/p>\n
It was like 12 o\u2019clock in the afternoon, so I stayed with her all day. I said, \u201cYou are going to be okay?\u201d She said, \u201cOkay.\u201d And then, all of a sudden, she looked at me and said, \u201cMommy! What\u2019s happening?\u201d And all of a sudden, she just collapsed.<\/p>\n
And I said, \u201cLord, let Britney stay here and take me because she\u2019s young. I already lived my life. I\u2019ll go. Just let Britney stay here, and just let me go.\u201d<\/p>\n
I came to a point where I wanted to take my own life. But I said, \u201cNo, if I take my life now, I have two other daughters. What are they going to do?\u201d But I was at that point of, \u201cI\u2019ll just take my own life.\u201d<\/p>\n
I checked myself into a facility. I said, \u201cYou know, I need some help! I got to go get some help.\u201d So I went and checked my own self in. I knew something wasn\u2019t right with me. I think I stayed about 30 days in a treatment facility for depression and anxiety.<\/p>\n
I had insomnia. I couldn\u2019t eat, and I was depressed. I was sad, but I would always put on a happy face, \u201cOh, everything is great!\u201d But deep down inside, I was so sad and broken.<\/p>\n
During the pandemic<\/a>, they said, \u201cClose everything up.\u201d I fell into that. They said, \u201cNo churches are open.\u201d But I noticed The Universal Church was open.* <\/strong><\/span>I said, \u201cSomething is going on in that church. I got to find out.\u201d But then I thought, \u201cThey are supposed to be closed.\u201d Little did I know that I needed to be in the church.<\/p>\n I said, \u201cI\u2019m going in to find out what\u2019s going on.\u201d When I came in, I was received. I wasn\u2019t pushed away. They just listened to whatever I was talking about. They just listened. I started feeling that peace that I needed.<\/p>\n